its 2 am
she cant sleep
she keeps having bad dreams that make her want to cry

she been having a lot of family issues lately
and they make her realize how lucky she is to be with her Master.
yet she is terrified that shes not able to give Him what He wants or needs
she doesnt know why she is feeling this way lately
He makes it clear He is happy with her
and she is being a good girl...

she doesnt know where this is coming from...
the only thing she can think of is that its almost been a year
and from her experiences something this good never lasts

not for her
its like she isnt meant to be happy in this life
for more than an allotted amount of time

sometimes she feels this makes her weak
but this is how she feels
she doesnt like it but she cant change how she feels.

she wishes He would tell her how He feels
let her know verbally
other than the "love you"

*sighs*

why does she never feel good enough?